I love bags, branded bags but I never really own one. Because:

-firstly, I am not sure if I can take care of them by diligently cleaning them every few weeks or months (yes, I'm a messy person FYI).

-secondly, I do not know if I can carry the look, i mean, look like a taitai.

-thirdly, I am scared of losing or misplacing the bags (very forgetful me).

-forth, I am terrified of being robbed (my heart beats faster if I carry a rather expensive bag).

-fifth, most of the time I need a really big and slouchy kinda bag so that I can throw all my stuff in and that's it. Rummaging through my bag to find something has become a habit.

-sixth, I "heartpain" spending the $$ to just buy a bag (perhaps I did not grow up in a rich family and money was really hard to earn or even save). If I have the $$, I would rather buy lots not-so-expensive bags.

-seventh, I am too lazy to change bags coz I will tend to forget to bring this and that. Now after having zy, I only use three bags - toscano sling, kipling slouch and baby couture diaper bag.

-eight, I would rather avoid "gossips" or "green eye".

Anyway.

I have been barking on jw to buy me a branded bag as a consolation for the pregnancy and birth of zy. But all along, I did not have the heart to look or choose. All I wish to know and have is jw's sincerity and love for me.

And he has been really very sweet.

Ever since zy came into our lives, we bicker more because of different mindsets and expectations. No more couple life but family life and we took quite some time to adjust. But we are doing better. Alot better. And I know that jw still loves me as his wife more than as zy's mother and I think this is really important to us. To stay connected, respected and loved as husband and wife.

And yes, I got it.