it's a COLOURFUL life i'm living.

Monday, July 30, 2007 Y 12:29 PM

experienced what-i-deemed-as "contractions" last night.

thought i'm going to deliver so soon. so i started stroking my bulging tummy, praying that the discomfort will disappear. luckily it did.

getting epidural for sure. the pain last night already scared me out of my wits. i cannot imagine the real labour contractions.

i think i'll faint. =(

Friday, July 27, 2007 Y 4:24 PM

message from AWARE.org.sg

Salute to all women.

Thursday, July 26, 2007 Y 11:52 AM

so far so good.

never regretted throwing my letter (maybe initially kinda lost when bank account stopped growing).

if i can turn back time, i will do the same thing too. for sure.

tummy is 35 inches as of 6 & half months.

weight - 59kg

trying to maintain this weight for past 2 months. but i doubt so coz have not been exercising for a good long time.

super happy for jw n for his work performace recognition. super happy for myself too coz it means i can really slack at home.

this morning, I woke up with a sudden strong realisation that deeply touched my heart.

"I'm really MARRIED."

i can feel my soul, my heart, my life, myself once again.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007 Y 11:08 AM

i've always loved art but never had the chance to get any nearer to it coz i'm trained to be a science person academically.

now i finally have the chance to fulfil my dream.

Getting in touch with my inner soul, my real self, my true contentment.

started my oil painting class at nafa yesterday and the class was fabulous. different people from different walks of life, different characters, different aspirations meet at this small place.

i feel like in neverland during painting. clear mind with a peaceful heart.

fern said that while i'm painting, i'm also cultivating a sense of art and refinement for baby.

hope baby will love art too.

Monday, July 23, 2007 Y 12:28 PM

Indian cuisine @ The Banana Leaf Apolo last sat.

very nice!

happy happy happy.

had been feeling a bit down for the past few days.

couldn't seem to find the right clothes to wear.

tummy is feeling heavier and bigger, sometimes draining me of my energy.

finding it hard to adjust to coming third trimester.

but whenever i look at my belly, imagining baby smiling sweetly at me, my heart melts.

every sacrifice seems worthwhile again.

Friday, July 20, 2007 Y 1:20 PM

this is what I see everyday the moment I wake up.

at peace.

Thursday, July 19, 2007 Y 2:33 PM

因为你.

因为你,
我更了解自己,
更努力改变自己的坏脾气,
更懂得体谅和关心,
更能放宽本来狭窄的心胸,
更学习体会真爱.

因为你,
我变得与世无争,
变得慵懒,
变得毫不在乎世间之变和人际是非,
变得比以前更洒脱更自信更懂得享受人生,
变得更知道自己在这一生要的是什么,
变得自己都不忍识自己.

因为你,
家里开始充满了生气和希望.

因为你,
我和他更珍惜彼此的爱和在一起的时光.

因为你,
我的人生开始美满.

谢谢你.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007 Y 11:16 AM

Jingwei is out of town these 2 days so i'll be going back to my place to stay.

Told him I can never imagine sleeping in our bed without him.

Starting to pack baby's room. Well, that room supposedly is our study room. Painted in my favourite green. Least did we expect that heaven is giving us our gift so early so now we have to convert this room for baby. Not sure if baby likes green. Most probably not. My dad used to buy alot of yellow baby stuff for me, thinking that I was a baby boy (those days their gynae did not tell them the gender of their baby). And unconsciously, I grew up disliking yellow so much till my mum told me that. Hahahahahaha.

3 more months to go. Wonder if we have enough time to decor baby's room to our and his liking. Baby's room will be cozy and filled with our love for him.

me with my big tummy. 6 months.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007 Y 2:34 PM

a picture speaks a thousand words.

Baby is rather cheeky these days. Covered his face with his hands during the scan last sat, pretending to be sleeping. Come on, mummy knows you are not asleep at all. Still dare to kick me right after then scan. Oh my, you are behaving more like your mischevious daddy.

6 months - baby weighs about 650g.

I gained only about 1kg last month. Well, that calls for a celebration feast huh!! Hahahaha!!

p/s. feeling heavier with tummy tightening and getting bigger. maybe one baby is enough.

Monday, July 16, 2007 Y 4:32 PM

Jacky's concert was FANTASTIC.

We absolutely enjoyed ourselves so much that we stood up and danced for almost 2 hours!

I even forgot I am pregnant.

Anyway, I don't care.

This song he wrote for his wife is exceptionally touching. I really love it.

讲你知
歌手：张学友曲词:张学友

看你背面我身体欠自然

看你正面两手失控再颤

看你笑面我开心数夜数天

与你说话我哑口会无言

与你碰面我体温会乱变

与你贴面一世的经典

若你肯再拥抱紧一点

我愿意用我十年

去换我共你十天

要讲你知你的意义

每当我的心肝跳一次

没法知难制止

你是血液深于我每一处

要讲你知我的故事

这一秒即使心再不跳

在记忆潜意识

爱是已在心中

永世不变

光阴可以瞬间转数十年

生死起跌也知不会幸免

当中只有爱的感觉未曾变

I was searching for love in my entire life...

& I think I've found it.

Friday, July 13, 2007 Y 7:49 AM

We are going for Jacky Cheung's concert tonight!

SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 11, 2007 Y 2:08 PM

爱你的人和你爱的人。

不应该是同样的人吗。

人是自私的。
只想被爱，不想去爱。

幸福吗？

以前，心想只要找一个爱我的人，这辈子就甭愁了。
其实是痛苦的。

当对他没感觉时，什么都看不顺眼。
即使他对你再好，心里却觉得不够好，一定有人比他更好。

看不出和他的将来。

空虚。

放弃吧。

给彼此相爱的机会和权利。

你和他都会快乐些。

在一起，爱你选择的人，被他爱着。

就够了。

It is by loving and by being loved that one can come nearest to the soul of another.

Monday, July 9, 2007 Y 3:25 PM

The truth may hurt a little while but a lie hurts forever.

This is what everyone understands but cannot seem to adhere to the principle of not lying.

Pls don't lie to someone, unless you are absolutely sure he will never know the truth.

I'm really very lousy even when it comes to telling white lies. Makes me feel cranky and uneasy all day & night. Hopefully, baby will not be like his mummy coz this world is full of unrealities. One has to protect and defend himself under circumstances and white lies come handy.

A little intelligence in this aspect would be great. For survival.

p/s: Baby is starting to be kinda active since yesterday. Kicking me from morning till night. Feeling kinda funny but I think he's cute. Can't wait to see him again this weekend.

nice picture by Anne Geddes.

Friday, July 6, 2007 Y 1:47 PM

Day out with Elaine yesterday.

Caught up with her bf, chee fei, too when he came to meet her. Sweet ya.

Seeing him treating her so well makes me feel great too.

It's not easy to meet someone who loves you for whoever you are.

Not matter how fat & ugly you become, he still loves you wholeheartedly and faithfully.

He is all supportive of your decisions, your dreams, your goals and never say anything to degrade your worth as a woman.

In times of difficulties, he is always there for you, with a shoulder to rely on and a listening ear to share your worries.

His priority in life is to protect & shelter you & provide the best of everything for you.

Love. That is what it should be.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007 Y 3:43 PM

First time. Sitting by the pool blogging.

Nice breeze accompanied by the music of water cascading down into the pool.

Maybe I should go for a swim, or rather, soak in the pool?

This is the life I'm yearning for.

Carefree, blessed, loved.

Perhaps when you lose many things in life, you tend to gain other things. Life can be better than before.

"When God closes a door, He opens a window."

Monday, July 2, 2007 Y 1:34 PM

原来，爱很简单。

当爱一个人时，会无条件付出。

有时自己也会认不清自己。

爱他就只想和他一辈子在一起。

就这么简单。