http://blog.sina.com.cn/u/1231093107

chanced upon my old blog.

really nice feeling reading. I think my writing is not so bad afterall huh. wahahahahahaaaa.

actually i prefer writing in chinese. & of course, baby has to learn chinese no matter what.

And we are sure to enrol him to NAFA Arts Kindergarten when he turns 3.

Ok ok, it's my selfish wish. =P

hehehehehehee

p/s: click n play the song by Michael Buble! our fav song at the moment.=D


me sis bro.






Rainy day.

Had a bad nightmare last night. Dreamt that I slipped and fell at this hawker centre coz of slippery floor. & I went unconscious. After gaining consciousness, I felt blood in my underwear. My heart ached and I cried.

I cannot afford to lose baby.

Almost 7 and half months of endurance and patience, this pregnancy has been testing my limits. Recently, vomiting seems to be back but I didn't really care much.

Baby is kicking me now again. Feeling his presence in my life.

Blessed. 7 months 1 week look. waist 37 inches. weight 63kg.
Yup, that's my bulging pointy tummy.



Baby at 29 weeks. 8 more weeks to go till 37th week. That's only 2 more months.

I'm not mentally prepared yet though.

Not as a mother who is responsible for another human being's life, at least for the rest of my own life.

Can't imagine breastfeeding baby. It cringes me everytime I think about it.

Baby seems very active these days. Kicking, punching, doing all kinds of somersaults. Sometimes it feels amazing to see tummy in ripples. But not when I need to rest, especially at night.

My feet are starting to swell too. Too much fluid retention. Plan to start my exercise regime to at least keep my weight constant or lose a kg or two. Already gained about 14kg and waist 37inches. Feeling fat. Never felt like this before. My heaviest was only 56kg when I was in primary school. So I do feel down at times with this weight gain.

Sometimes I really wished time will pass faster so that I can wear back my sexy clothes, high heels, and lingerie.

Hopefully my figure will be better after baby is out. Fuller boobs with hour glass figure.

Yeah.


早上，好不容易搭到德士去学画。

一上车，大叔就滔滔不绝天南地北，尤其说到女儿，更是比手划脚。他对女儿的成就很骄傲，整张脸洋溢着自豪的笑容。又说到妻子，说自己很感激妻子对他和家庭的付出。不爱和疼惜她也不行。

他感慨，以前没孩子时，是两个人的世界。想去哪儿，牵手就去。
有了孩子，变成三个人的世界。
人生就从此变了。

两个人，爱对方有80%，爱自己20%。
三个人，妻子爱孩子70%，爱丈夫15%，爱自己15%。丈夫爱孩子30%，爱妻子30%，爱工作20%，爱自己20%。

我说，不会吧。我还是会爱丈夫多一些。

大叔大笑，说不可能。这就是人生。

p/s: 心情好多了。心胸放宽一点，做人比较快乐。更何况是为了我爱的人。



"cheer me up" daisies from jw.





28 weeks - baby is about 1.3kg.

Baby was naughty during the scan last Saturday. Hid his face, facing my butt. But doc said that baby is already in good position for labour. Got a shock coz i'm still not mentally prepared for labour. & we are not really done with baby's room!

Anyway, i haven't been feeling good these days. Ankles and soles aching till sometimes i find it a torture to walk. & also, I realised some problems which I chose to not care in the past.

Not that I didn't care, but because I wanted my love to be happy.

In the end, I'm the unhappy person.

Now i want to get myself out.

For the sake of baby, myself & my love. For the 3 of us as a family.


歌曲：一块钱歌词
歌手：刘德华 专辑：一只牛的异想世界

你的可怜我的可怜
常常出现这世界总有一份爱
剩一点点
好想好想
你一辈子我一辈子都想改变伤心呀
总在一瞬间消失不见
好想好想
壹块钱你的世界我的世界
都会改变
壹块钱能有多少爱
能有多少爱
壹块钱所有的坏在世界里
渐渐的都已经不再
壹块钱你的世界我的世界
都会改变
壹块钱包含所有爱
包含所有爱
壹块钱帮帮人家帮帮自己帮帮世界
很应该
也很应该

very meaningful song.

Although most of the times i try my best to help out, sometimes i do have second thoughts about giving.

"what will he do with the money i give him?"
"does he really need this money?"

esp. to those selling tissue packs.

but if i reject, i feel very bad. real bad.

a dollar for three packs of tissue.

maybe i shld just give.

布施是一种快乐，不论是财布施，法布施或无畏布施。
将这种快乐布施给人，就与人为善，与人结缘。
在不知不觉中，自己也会获得快乐，福报自然而然也会来到你身边。

--释悟宏法师

p/s: cooking can be really tiring. my soles were dead aching from standing for too long. first attempt cooking new dishes, felt kinda not-so-delicious. maybe usually the cook cannot appreciate his/her food. jw was very encouraging though, saying that the food is nice.

at least i don't feel my effort wasted.=P




this is my most favourite pic i took recently.

Many people enjoy indulging in material comfort but yet could not find happiness and contentment in life.

Happiness is not decided by any external conditions; it is dependent upon our graditude towards life.

p/s: i'm cooking this evening for us. happy. super happy.