it's a COLOURFUL life i'm living.

Monday, March 31, 2008 Y 5:45 PM

Separated. Not.

Any marriage has its ups and downs. Though we are not feeling the down yet, we are feeling the stress.

Stress from not communicating well.

Stress from channelling too much attention to little zy that we neglected each other's feelings.

Stress from not knowing how to express our care and love for each other.

Stress from too tired from routine life and too little time for each other.

I regretted cursing jw when we quarrelled yesterday. I lost my cool, lost my sanity.

And worried my family.

Why can't love be simple. Why can't happiness be simple. Why can't life be simple.

Deep down inside, jw and I know we still love each other, just like the first day we fell in love...

& of coz, we love our little rascal too.

& yes, I'm feeling better.

Thursday, March 27, 2008 Y 2:05 PM

Happy 5th month, Zhuo Yan!!

Monday, March 24, 2008 Y 2:42 PM

our precious flipped today finally!

I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo HAPPY!!!!!!!!

zy is getting cuter and more adorable everyday. When he flipped just now, he was so delighted with himself that he kept smiling! So amusing! Hahahaahahha! Yeah I know zy is a bit slower in his motor skills compared to other babies coz he is always taking his own sweet time. & doing anything must depend on his mood, just like his mama!=P

p/s: jw and I are learning to skate! Yeah! When zy can cycle, he can chase after his papa and mama while we skate!=P

Thursday, March 20, 2008 Y 4:06 PM

our little rascal.

& I am the Disipline Mistress.

ARGH.

Monday, March 17, 2008 Y 2:22 PM

<-- taken yesterday before I went hysterical when zy "accidentally" rolled over while on tummy playtime.

Have been trying to take a more relaxed mindset when bringing zy out but guess we still feel kinda uptight (coz we do not know when zy will be cranky).

Alot of times jw and I bicker over small stuffs concerning zy but we are learning to respect each other's way of handling our little rascal.

Afterall, 执子之手，与子偕老. At the end of the day, we hope to be as loving and be able to grow old together, holding each other's hands.

These days I have been thinking of what I really want to do in my life or should I say, in this life. Life is short (I am not being pessimistic!). Definitely there are regrets and what can we do but to minimise the extent or the number of the regrets.

I have quite a number of "not-so-right" decisions till now in my life. Of coz, I do regret. Sometimes I would wonder if my decisions were otherwise, how will my life be now? Maybe I should not even wonder or imagine. Life is good now, with jw and zy and my loving families. What more can I ask for?

I believe that "God has everything planned for me, for us" (although I am not a Christian).

Anyway.

I have bought a working table and a "something" to create a working space for myself at the balcony. I am so happy! Finally I have a corner of my own.;) Okies, I am startin

g a business, working from home of course. Hopefully everything will be smooth.

Dead tired now. Played with zy for almost two hours. Sure, I am looking forward to more challenging times with zy.

--> cheeky small piggy yeo

Wednesday, March 12, 2008 Y 2:38 PM

okie, I have another achievement.

I managed to bathe zy all alone by myself this morning. By myself means I prepared and carried the bath tub and then clearing all the mess that zy created.

*beaming*

Wanted to wait for mum to be back to assist me but zy was too good a boy to deny his favourite time of everyday. I think zy really understands whatever I tell him. He does not fuss whenever I "talk sense" to him. He looks at me and listens and then carries out the actions that I told him what a good boy should be doing.

I am so happy. So happy. So happy. So happy. So happy. So happy. So happy.

Thursday, March 6, 2008 Y 9:38 AM

Independent ZY!=)

Tuesday, March 4, 2008 Y 11:12 AM

ZY rolls left during tummy down time!

YEAH!!

Monday, March 3, 2008 Y 10:24 AM

some friends come and go. some stay in the heart forever.

Juli is going back to Indonesia for good. To marry and have a family of her own. Deep down I feel happy for her that she has found the right man, to even think of settling down.

Yes, women are usually the ones who give up or sacrifice her career, passion, friends and life. All to be with her love and to exchange for a happy family.

*Juli if you are reading this entry, this is what I wish to say to you:

I'm so happy for you, that you have decided on you life direction and you are ready to give all for love.

I'm glad that we were in part of each other's life journeys. Well, you know life is short and it's all about fate that we met and become friends. Thank you for all treasured moments we shared.

Hope you will enjoy staying in your cocoa plantations and make lots babies. Haha.

Have a blessed marriage and new life ahead ya.

You'll be fine, no worries.*

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p/s. Today zy lifted his head for the first time during morning tummy time! I'm so happy! *beaming mummy*

I was so surprised till I forgot to take pictures... =P

One & only pic.