Blessed. With Baby.














坐在床上摸着伴随我10个月的大肚子，还倒是有点不舍。

说时间过得快也不见得。10个月的等待和期盼，非笔墨能形容。

期间的焦虑和无助，现在回想起来觉得那只不过是那么小桩的几件事。

此刻我想我真的准备好了。心里知道如果这次能跨出对于生产的心理障碍，以后人生的一切都该难不倒自己了。

现在的心和脑袋都很平静。

明天终于可以和宝宝见面了。

总结：增重-20kg 腰围-40inch (today is exactly the 39th week of pregnancy)





The wait is gonna be over. Somehow, I felt a sudden lost.

I'm becoming a real mummy soon.

Bless me and baby.


Yes, I've been trying to be patient. But I'm not sure how long I can be.

This pregnancy has kinda "forced" me to grow up even more, in terms of emotional, psychological, physical and mental strength. Guess it has made me so much mature at my age.

I always ask god if this is what he has planned for me in my life, that I always have to go through different things and experience earlier what life actually is. Perhaps that is why I don't look like my age and my mindset sometimes (or most of the times) does not coincide with some people I meet.

Sometimes I wonder if I can turn back time, my life will be different. But life now is good isn't it? I have achieved almost everything a woman would want in her life when I am only 24. While I see my friends still struggling out there fighting for career, money, relationship, stability, family etc.

What more can I ask for?

I don't feel like a girl anymore. More like a woman.

Maybe I won't want think about turning back time anymore.

Not anymore.

p/s. This is the 38th and half weeks. Baby is still enjoying his stay in his mummy's tummy. Cheeky baby who sometimes responds to my talking to him. Let's see what he has up his sleeves when he comes out.


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Had a scare last night.

Contractions. If they were.

The pain is the worst I have ever felt in my whole life till now. &, this is only the beginning. When my body prepares herself for the real thing.

I can't imagine when the day comes.

I don't think I can manage. 99% sure.

=(


seem to be losing my patience.

when is baby coming out?






Sometimes love just ain't enough.

Now, I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

(Chorus) But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you,
but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

(Chorus)

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.


i'm tired.