showered zy for the first time!

although it was a not so pro attempt, but at least i tried right?? hahahah and the lucky part is zy did not kick any fuss at all! that makes double happiness and satisfaction for me today!=)

anyway, i've a dilemma now. should i get back to working society? have been looking through the papers and yeah, there are a couple of jobs that interest me. I mean, i know i can never be a SAHM(stay at home mum). everyone knows. but i do not wish to miss out zy's growing up years. i want to see his "firsts" in everything, be it walking or talking. however, it seems to be a waste of my brain cells staying at home just to look after him.

oh... tell me! what should i do!