Finally realised what really is motherhood.


Baby boy is diagnosed with jaundice and is admitted to hospital for light treatment for 2 days. Well, as much as I expected, this will be the situation but when jw called to tell, I tried so hard to fight back my tears.



My heart wrenched.


When mum called, I broke down. Uncontrollably.


I'm still tearing now.. Though my mind is conscious and clear. I don't know why tears just flow whenever I think of Baby boy. The bond we created over just 4 days is overwhelming. I never felt so much so much for someone.


Seeing Baby boy being so brave makes me dear him even more. Although that's what I tell him everyday - Baby boy is a strong, brave, happy and healthy boy. Mummy is always here to protect you so don't be afraid ok?


When we saw him just now, he was still the smiley baby who looked so carefree in his sleep even other babies in the nursery were screaming their lungs out.


Baby boy is really a Special gift from heaven to us. Thank heaven.