Yes, I've been trying to be patient. But I'm not sure how long I can be.

This pregnancy has kinda "forced" me to grow up even more, in terms of emotional, psychological, physical and mental strength. Guess it has made me so much mature at my age.

I always ask god if this is what he has planned for me in my life, that I always have to go through different things and experience earlier what life actually is. Perhaps that is why I don't look like my age and my mindset sometimes (or most of the times) does not coincide with some people I meet.

Sometimes I wonder if I can turn back time, my life will be different. But life now is good isn't it? I have achieved almost everything a woman would want in her life when I am only 24. While I see my friends still struggling out there fighting for career, money, relationship, stability, family etc.

What more can I ask for?

I don't feel like a girl anymore. More like a woman.

Maybe I won't want think about turning back time anymore.

Not anymore.

p/s. This is the 38th and half weeks. Baby is still enjoying his stay in his mummy's tummy. Cheeky baby who sometimes responds to my talking to him. Let's see what he has up his sleeves when he comes out.